haix.. long time din blog liao.. think my blog turning rusty soon if im not going to update anything..
today went to my aunt hse before i went to work.. haix.. i suddenly feel like missing her. sch holiday started and my mum wanted me to be back home.. so din stay at my aunt hse recently..
haix.. she's been taking care of me since one month old.. she's like my second mum like that.. and my mum told me that im not going to stay dere anymore.. im quite piss off and sad.. mostly sad ba i think... imagine you hve been staying with someone for many years liao.. got some feelings de ma.. suddenly cant be with the person liao.. so when my mum keep bringing up this issue.. i will force myself not to hear anything from her.. mm.. pretending that i din hear anything ba i can say.. my aunt like kept asking me whether i will still be staying at her house when sch starts next year.. she was actually hoping i could.. staying in her house for 16 yrs liao leh.. who would bear to leave a person whom you have been staying with for 16 years le.. i really dun mind slping in the living room.. squeezing with the small kids... it makes me feel even more cosier i can say..
wad made me feel more sadder than ever is that i found out that my aunt's being so lonely at home.. her kids at work.. usually at night den come back.. her husband also at work too.. those kids that she usually babysit had gone home for good too.. the rest in childcare.. imagine how she past her time alone in the day.. i feel very sad.. and disappointed with myself..
ok.. today went to her hse.. den she wanted to go to my another aunt's shop to buy something.. she din want to go alone.. and she told me.."want go with me?.. im feel so bored going alone leh".. my heart really melted this time.. imagine how she coped in the house for all these times.. haiz..
i feel like crying..
besides that i also feel that my mum wasn't so approve of me to go my aunt hse dere too often like that.. today right after work.. erm.. midnight liao.. actually wanted to settle my supper at amk central and den stay overnight at my aunt hse de.. den she sort of not very happy.. haix.. at home.. she seems like jailing me like that.. saying "you not going back to stay at your aunt hse liao hor when sch starts.." haix.. maybe my mum scare that i will leave her for good.. where got any parents would want their kids to leave them de.. right?? maybe i should try to understand her too ba.. haix.. ok.. im really fan now..
to be continued..

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 2:08 AM

I'm blogging at abt 10plus, almost 11am in the morning on sunday, 10th Dec 2006. ok.. last night work until midnight then reach home, so drag until today den blog.. gonna blog abt yesterday(sat) de thingy..

by right yesterday got k box de.. from 2pm to 7pm.. but heard quite many pple busy so the outing to k box was cancelled at the last minute yesterday morning.. haha.. im one of them who cant go too la.. got night shift work ma.. cant go too lor..

meet JM for lunch in the afternoon, we went to borrow some books in amk library.. i actually wanted to borrow those "chicken soup for the blah blah blah soul" de kind of books.. but cant find leh.. den in the end borrowed other books lor.. afterwhich we went j8 had our lunch, walk walk den went straight to work liao..

ok.. gonna talk a bit of my work.. today nigght shift, saturday still worx.. so sure will be damn busy at the outlet de.. tot i will be dead too.. but hey hey hey.. my roster was actually a dishwasher- helping the dish auntie to bring those washed dishes in and out of the kitchen can liao.. heex.. heard from my Sir that this chance not always have de.. caz nt enough dishwasher auntie ma.. so i be the auntie today.. heex.. good in the sense that being a dishwasher is not as tedious as serving the customers outside.. but bad in the sense that those dishes are really heavy.. and i met with some mishaps too.. haix..
ok.. work in the kitchen.. maybe dishwasher is not that tedious.. but its really scary.. i need to constantly passby the chefs' alley to place back their washed utensils.. the alley so narrow so cramp so diffifult to squeeze, plus there's always hot oven hot oil hot food hot water all over the place.. scare scare la.. plus the floor so slippery and i almost fall a few times liao.. my shoes no friction liao.. ok. plus one more thing.. all the chefs are tall tall and big big size de.. erm.. they cant see me so easily la.. so when i passby them and they did not see it.. they will just bang and hit into me.. so even im not scalded by hot oil, or fell down due to slippery floor.. i might even be just banged and knocked down.. ok ok.. joking joking.. aiya.. so better no dishwasher for me liao.. its a nightmare.. but those chefs quite farnie also de la.. they so childish also.. they used those dog-shaped potatoes and played dog racing on their cooking platform to see who can win -_-"

ok.. here comes the mishap.. when bringing the dishes out of the kitchen to put in cabinet.. dunnoe why.. about 10 side plates that im holding dropped onto the ground and abt 6 plates broken.. sianzzz.. plus that time in the evening-night time somemore... the outlet full house.. "bliang!".. so when those broken plates were heard, the noisy and lots of excitement de outlet had suddenly become silently dead.. wa.. whole outlet experienced a few seconds of dead silence.. ok so quiet.. so peaceful.. everyone trying to look where the sound came from... but guilty la.. den later i broke another tall ice cream glassware somemore.. sob... why i kept breaking things de... cant stand it.. so careless and crumsy.. thinking myself to be so useless.. making pple so troublesome.. ok.. den i remembered li yong told me this.. "you need to endure, understand?".. and cky said "you must have faith and believe in yourself.." ok.. their words sort of motivated me ba.. yeah.. i should be able to make it.. wait.. no.. i can make it de..

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 10:40 AM

i suddenly got this urge to write this entry at this hour.. now is 0130 sat eaarly in the morning.. midnight la actually.. yup.. kk.. dun look at my entry de .. its wrong de.. im blogging now maybe b'cos i got nothing to do.. and secondly i got some "gan(3) chu(4)"..
we usually dun cherish the ones around us.. its always that when evryonee is leaving and then we will feel one another's important presence.. human beings are always like that.. why cant we cherish one another when everyone is just right beside us.. maybe we took things for granted very greatly.. much greatly i can say.. its always almost at the end of everything den we will dare to show love,care and concern for everyone.. its also always at this time that evryone will have the most "gan(3) chu(4)".. those emotions- happy, sad, etc.. ok.. its just like a movie too.. you will always feel touched, happiness, sadness at the end of the show at most of the time.. there goes the same as 4I.. mm.. this is wat i think ba.. i dunnoe wat others think so.. give comments k..
when we are still having lessons as a class in 4I.. we are feeling quite disappointed.. thinking that 4I's always facing so much obstacles.. and some evn hoping to get out of the sch asap.. ok.. in overall many will think that its the sch that caused us to be so miserable.. but actually.. I dun really hate the school so much.. may detest why sch is making our class met with so much obstacles at first.. but not as much as that of hate.. maybe our sch has lousy policy?.. however, to think of it.. does anyone know that without the school.. there will not have 4I class, no 4I class means there will be no combination of us pple.. no sch means no lousy policy.. no lousy policy no obtacles.. and we 4I would not have been so bonded ma.. hey.. found out xiao yang suddenly talking sense leh.. ok.. maybe its sense to me.. but crap to others ba.. ok.. late liao.. got nagged.. sianx.. to be continued

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 1:25 AM

mm.. i will continue the chalet thingy some other times ba.. caz i think im far way behind time.. must blog sometime recently de.. kk.. den i talk abt the seoul garden de ba..

4th Dec 2006 (Mon).. meet outside amk SG at 6pm.. i reached there.. eh.. no one wor.. kk.. den saw rui han and li yong coming forward.. teah.. they reached the earliest wor den also found out no one.. then we idled around the area.. waiting for the rest.. seoul garden, its my first time in my life to be there on mon.. i very sua gu la.. really did not step into seoul garden b4 ma.. ok.. i think i did not eat much too.. too lazy? maybe ba.. too tired to touch those raw food liao.. so focus on those cooked food.. ok.. have fun most of the time ba. we played while we ate.. games like zhong ji mi ma, calling each other de names, etc.. after that also go to the back see li yong talk crap.. dunno why leh.. he talk crap pple also very interested de.. haha.. ok.. im one of his audience la.. mm.. abt 20 4I's there ba.. and that cky.. chao farnie.. go eat the ice cream with three prwns.. no wonder will get stomachache..

afterwhich we went playground.. around 10pm le ba i think.. muhaha.. i luv the swings.. ok.. i dunno how to push myself de.. need pple to push me and teach me.. novie, li yong, rui han, ting hao,etc.. muhaha..thanks.

we dere also played catching.. the defreeze and freezing games.. so fun.. haha.. run here run dere.. long time did not play these games liao.. not i dun want.. but its no one play with me.. though this game seems like children play de.. but who cares? we happy can liao.. i luv it.. i wanna play somemore.. we also have a live concert by our HIM.. muhaha.. see of course fake de.. but also need to give them a round of applause.. this trio formed by our honourable li yong, cky and clement.. muhaha.. ok.. they quite brave de la i must say.. almost more than 10 pple looking at their "live" concert worx.. bravo!

going back home around 11plus?.. yupyup.. i think so.. ok.. li yong that heady that day.. making sure everyone goes back safely.. so that everyone go back as a grp.. ok.. he rocks! ok.. me and tinghao den took the last train..wah.. really heng..

WORK
ok.. started work since monday le.. quite tiring i must say.. wah.. needs lots of eye and mind power.. ok so when i reached home.. im straight away on bed.. ok.. first few days made lots of mistake too.. like accidentally knocking off ice water almost on customer.. lucky she's a teen not an adult.. or else really get scolding from her.. den forget to key in lamb chop order.. and made the customer waited.. lucky she very kind also.. aiya.. lamb chop my species leh.. automatically forgot to take the order ma.. how can let pple eat my species.. ok.. dots.

NEGLECTED
i think im sort of neglected.. i seem to be living in my own world.. i feel that im so insignificant.. im so sad and disappointed.. haix.. even if i seem to be living in this world, i feel that im not living for myself.. im living under pressure instead...

URGE
i have the urge to learn and play basketball.. who got time?? can teach me?? anyone??

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 9:35 AM

muhaha.. forgive me if i did not blog for a long time la.. mm.. recently got difficulties online caz internet problem.. kk.. ltr still gt work.. but gonna blog as much as i can at this moment..

1st day of chalet:
mm.. meet our frenz at amk mrt station at 1pm.. wait wait.. still got many ppl haven come yet.. then suddenly someone said that the chalet is 3 days 2 nights.. i actually got a shock!! wat!! i tot is 2 days 1 night de..omg.. i didn't bring enough clothes.. no wonder other pple de bad so full full de.. my one so thin.. dots.. kk.. den quickly rush back to my aunt hse talk some clothes la.. den my aunt wanted me to bring something to my brother at braddell.. so bring this big bag of thingys go back braddell again.. den take 88 with jm to chalet alone.. aiya.. we should have take mrt to amk first den take 88.. the journey so long.. ok.. i very toot la.. stay at braddell so long liao.. still dunno the place to take 88.. still need to ask tinghao.. i even got reprimanded by kahmu(jm)lor..
that time reach pasir ris terminal le.. den quickly call yen ru.. she told us to run as fast as possible to catch the shuttle bus they are taking.. run run run.. den i saw a bus gone liao.. tot they also went off too.. den eh.. still so many mini bus dere.. muhahaha.. they still dere.. so lucky we manage to catch it.. Thanks those who helped to ask the bus uncle to wait for us yeah!! =P kk.. den no place to sit.. so sit on wendeline's leg.. Xin Ku Ni le..

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 9:14 AM

muhaha.. forgive me if i did not blog for a long time la.. mm.. recently got difficulties online caz internet problem.. kk.. ltr still gt work.. but gonna blog as much as i can at this moment..

1st day of chalet:
mm.. meet our frenz at amk mrt station at 1pm.. wait wait.. still got many ppl haven come yet.. then suddenly someone said that the chalet is 3 days 2 nights.. i actually got a shock!! wat!! i tot is 2 days 1 night de..omg.. i didn't bring enough clothes.. no wonder other pple de bad so full full de.. my one so thin.. dots.. kk.. den quickly rush back to my aunt hse talk some clothes la.. den my aunt wanted me to bring something to my brother at braddell.. so bring this big bag of thingys go back braddell again.. den take 88 with jm to chalet alone.. aiya.. we should have take mrt to amk first den take 88.. the journey so long.. ok.. i very toot la.. stay at braddell so long liao.. still dunno the place to take 88.. still need to ask tinghao.. i even got reprimanded by kahmu(jm)lor..
that time reach pasir ris terminal le.. den quickly call yen ru.. she told us to run as fast as possible to catch the shuttle bus they are taking.. run run run.. den i saw a bus gone liao.. tot they also went off too.. den eh.. still so many mini bus dere.. muhahaha.. they still dere.. so lucky we manage to catch it.. Thanks those who helped to ask the bus uncle to wait for us yeah!! =P kk.. den no place to sit.. so sit on wendeline's leg.. Xin Ku Ni le..

started our day by renting a bike and do skating.. den after that go fetch ellice.. den go change my bike to a double sitting de.. haha.. i very lazy to ride ma.. plus i also dun really know how to ride a bike de.. ellice bacame my bike rider.. muhaha.. so fun to be seated at the bike.. can dun do anything.. k... im bad.. aiya.. just let me be a bad gal at that moment lo.. kk.. den ellice fetch me to white sand dere.. journey also very long.. help them carry some food that are to be prepared for dinner de.. den a few bikes got chained up by the staff in charge there la.. she looks so fierce..

preparation of dinner started.. muhaha.. preparation seems to be a bit tedious like that.. but must really thanks Yen ru and Yu hui wor!! they rocks.. they lead and did most of the cooking de wor.. some guys also helped out too.. ok.. den that chun wei.. didn know that he seem to know much about cooking wor..

* my S H A T T E R E D dreams_ 8:57 AM