Yang

2007-10-31T02:17:00.000+08:00

hmm.. 2.20 am at this time.. i cant sleep at all.. think just now went night jogging and after that have one whole package of tea.. so in the end now so ALERT!

anw.. i need to thanks lots of people who have been supporting and encouraging me.. thanks.. i already accept the fact liao.. and i think im happier than before.. dunno why.. maybe i retain i will experience some things which other people cant experience. it may not be a bad thing either.. retain is no big deal.. last thursday parents meet the VP.. the school dun even allow me to take a retest.. besides that retain still got condition de.. if i din meet their target next mid-year.. i will be out of jc and be in poly in july.. so now i have to look out for poly courses liao.. den next year Jan to March apply to get a place in poly.. so anyone can introduce any courses let me know k.. cos i really dunno wad courses to choose..

next year no more naqee and hui min with me in the same class le.. i have to be more independant den.. think i have been over-reliant on them for this one whole year..

no matter what.. i will learn from my mistakes and pick up myself from where i fall.. :) :) :)

2007-10-16T23:45:00.000+08:00

whee! have a nice but tired weekends.. have fun at nana's bd celebration.. hahas sat night at pasir ris.. den played games like murderer using phone.. quite fun.. hahas.. ali came up with this creative idea.. wahaha and it becomes in good uses when you are in the dark.. den we played until damn late.. so long din like that liao.. so fun sia

den sunday when to nana's hse.. and the day i anticipated finally arrive! caz i finally can learn mahjong liao.. so happy.. and i really learn lor.. and that black jack thingy.. i only know that basic rules.. din expect that still got split plus changing of cards blah blah blah.. anw i learn.. hahas.. i got a few gambling greatmasters liao.. wahaha..

i really enjoy myself during the weekends..

den when it comes to monday.. im totally sian.. have to rush my pw and stuff and monday its not a holiday for me at all.. haix

and today... my results came out and its a terrible day for me..all fail again except my H1 chemistry.. so history repeats itself.. and again.. im the onli U grade students in my class for Gp.. totally dishearten liao.. i wonder why pple get better grades than me yet they are more paranoid than me..

anw.. met up with jm den walk ard thomson plaza.. feel warmth after having a chat with her.. went home at ard 9pm.. den when reach home.. got visitors sia.. after that they jio us go eat prata at thomson.. LOL.. i just came back from thomson now still want go thomson.. but anw.. i made a new fren.. maybe it helps to compensate for the bad mood i had in the morning.. :)

2007-10-07T00:41:00.000+08:00

hmm.. din do blogging for a month.. seems that i got a lot of stuff to tok abt.. but i dunno where to start from..

many things in life are rather 无奈. just a wrong move and you will regret forever.. zzz i just ended my promos yesterday and i really really have a bad feeling. i need 2H2 and 1H1 to pass.. caz i really not enough time, i give up on my econs.. totally din study for exam.. quite a stupid thingy to do.. but i really dun understand at all. so i focus on myH2 maths and geo.. haix.. totally very difficult though i put effort in it.. the moment im stuck at all those difficult qns.. my mind totally went blank.. even basic knowledge also not in dere.. zzz even after moderation will also not pass..

true speaking.. although im really quite scare that i will retain but im prepared for it liao.. wad can i do?? nth i can do liao ma..

and i just know abt this thingy- students will be caught if they badmouth their own sch in their blog.. eh.. think the sch too overdo it liao.. damn ridiculous man! i wonder who the principal is.. i would like to take a look at him/her.. zzz plus its the student blog not the sch blog lo.. i wonder why the school so scare if it din do anything wrong.. the more the sch worry, the more suspicious it is..

and recently found out that my ears like got problem like that.. can feel the hurt in my ear drum at some moment.. den when water get in also got difficulties to clearing it.. am i going deaf soon?? hmm... wait and see lo..

haix.. now i only wan to play play play tok tok tok everyday.. and do nothing.. dun even wan go sch liao.. sianx.. i find that i really nid a sports to keep me occupied and be optismistic.. think when shili they all join outside de then i join ba..zzz i also wan to learn alot of things during holiday.. mahjong, knitting, bake edible cakes and cookies, learn "xian wen" blah blah blah.. and i also very eager to learn mahjong next sat.. whee~

all the best to those pple who are still having exams!

2007-09-02T10:14:00.000+08:00

wad's life??
clinging on to the memories
and living in misery?
how i wish time machine can do the trick
bringing me back to the past...

2007-08-27T15:51:00.000+08:00

today onli half-day in sch to celebrate tcher's day.. so went home quite early.. advance tcher celebration?? hmm.. strange hor.. so early to celebrate it on monday.. strange sch does strange things..

slag here and there and i finally just finished up my english essays so decided to take my break here.. still got stupid geo hw and eom to do... zzz so many corrections argh!!

and i jus dunno why my life's so wrong.. i onli have one more months to promos yet i haven even touch any subjects yet and i have always been dreaming about what to do after promos.. zzz plus my pw.. am i going to survive through the OP?? zzz

how i wish i can be like shili now.. having holidays and still can work to earn some money.. i wish to go work work too!!

went to find my cousins last thursday at imm.. hahas..travelled to jurong east alone.. nv in my life travelled alone to jurong east... so i dun even know where's the imm.. so anyhow dash here and there lor.. quite exciting la.. hmm.. is that considered adventurous?? eh.. okie.. im toking rubbish..

anw my mind now seems like going haywire liao and that stupid stomach.. i have been eating lots of things since i come home.. zzz.. going to find more more food den..

2007-08-15T18:05:00.000+08:00

天空不断下着无声的雪
而我只有思念勉强能温暖黑夜
拥抱离我已经千山万水
每个男人都有说不出的心碎
我还爱着一个人
但愿回到美好的从前
也许痛的感觉
证明了爱的深切
不然为什么我还不撤退
记得爱左右幸福的片段
所以才一直忘记要离开
伸出手继续勇敢付出我的爱
原地不动的等待
就算风把我的头发吹乱
记得爱是我疑惑的答案
就不再考虑应该不应该
你的泪落进无边无际的大海
就算我们都活得没有遗憾

只要记得爱就无所谓孤单

记得爱- 阿沁

2007-08-05T22:53:00.000+08:00

some things are beyond our control,
there's no way you can force it no matter how hard you tried...
but no one will blame you for nt achieving it.
however,
when some things are just within our reach
and yet you are reluctant to do it..
even if just for that little effort of trying..
you will be letting yrself down most.

2007-08-05T18:28:00.000+08:00

today's sunday.. just a blink and tmr would be monday.. how i wish it wont be so fast.. nvm.. bear two days and i will ahve a long weekend agian :):):)

i dig this out from nowhere.. hahas.. did this in sec 2 D&T lesson.. still remembering all those huge buffin and sawin machines blah blah blah..

this "apple" can attracts ants de.. i wonder if its sweeeeeeettttt...

"Loh Zhi Yang 2I (10)"

study w jm n py at amk mac.. too cold den switch to py's hse.. her mum made cookies for us!! actually gt a lot de.. den still gt colourful chocolate chips on top de.. but all in my stomache le..

went to buy py's prex at nitex w ling hong..
me and jm started to zhi lian while ling hong is still busy looking at her xiao chi..
clear version.. muahahs

this the blur version..
ling hong's so craze abt her xiao chi (the guy in the album dere)..

omg.. wads she's doing duh!

jm worth onli $19.95.. but im priceless.. hahas.. she's gonna punch me up if she sees this..

and know wad??.. i found out sth.. i go did the "FREN TEST thingy" den go answer qns liao den found out.. eh?? why they din even ask my name.. how will they know it if i din even write.. LOL.. den found out nid to register first.. zzz
so dumb la..

okay i gonna stop here
headache:(:(:(

2007-08-03T20:06:00.000+08:00

whee!! recently broke the record of not going MSN and blogging for a week.. hahas..
but i STILL cant catch up with my assigments!!
all the tasks are piling higher and higher on my desks le.. can compete with my height.. zzz.. tchrs are giving so much work recently.. just b'cos next week we have long weekends?? LoLs.. when am i going to finish it duh??.

yesterday met up with jie jie after my sch.. den go amk hub find pretty clothes for her fren's wedding.. i also saw many many other pretty clothes.. hahas.. i luv shopping with her.. so nice.. lalala.. but she's gonna transfer to other outlet soon.. and its so far away.. i wont be seeing her so often le..
i will miss her so badly.. :(

this week make up pe is so tedious and the tcher wan me go run 8 rounds at one go!!! 8 rounds!! LOL.. plus im running alone.. i look so much like a dummy running round the track.. and i ahve to bear with it for the next 3 weeks or so..
and den still gt vigorous exercises.. and now my butt still pain la.. sit also cannot walk also cannot lie down also cannot.. zzz.. haix.. maybe all these its for our own good.. like wad all adults will say..

today i have an early day off sch.. lala.. happi happi.. den everyone nid attend wad investiture handover thingy after that.. lolx.. quite lame.. hahahs.. den i tried to run off after my last lesson.. whee.. and den so heng i heard that tchers din take attendance at all.. the sch always tricked us into attending these events which they assume to be compulsry.. lol... lucky i din stay back... :):):)

and den....................

i saw her one of these days while goin to sch!! din expect to see her dere.. but will be the last time i see her.. or else i will be late for sch again... zzz

2007-07-27T22:37:00.000+08:00

Parents-Teacher meeting today... zzz

my maths cher luv to see my parents so much la.. hmm.. actually meeting no use de lo.. i know wad she's going to say.. went there early but still waited quite long for my turn.. 45mins i think caz she one student also can say quite long..

before that think my chem cher also want see my parents de ba.. she was asking that time whether my parents coming a not.. since i was not informed of anything at that time so i said i dunno lor.. but she dun believe me la.. keep asking and asking the same qns... zzz.

finally she asked, "are your FATHER, MOTHER AND GRANDMOTHER coming to the meeting session anot???????"!! i really really dunno la. everyone was laughing as if its a joke.. zzz

mood was not on my side today.. hmm.. bad things always befall on me recently.. zz. and tat my two yrs plus de dear died in silence in the middle of night today.. sniff.. it goes thru thick and thin w me all these years la.. cant bear to leave.. :(

my dear:

my dear~

18th June 2005 ~ 27th July 2007
hmm.. inside the screen is written as "CONTACT SERVICE".. i dunno wad is it... does anyone know wads that??...

den today went to my auntie hse.. do some packing stuff like that.. hahas.. found this bear bear clock which is given to me when im primary.. eh.. i forgot liao.. cute right??

hmm.. waiting for my mum to come hm tonight.. waiting waiting~

im mentally tired :(

2007-07-25T22:25:00.000+08:00

whoo.. these few days weather so cold but niceee.. i luv it la.. esp can slp so soundly at night.. the next morning dun nid wake up.. can juz overslept and den the following day produce mc.. hmm.. going to school now has been a chore to me everyday.. *humph*
how i wish everyday weather can be like this.. feel as if im like living in Genting.. lala.. or in north or south pole.. imaging yrself playing w polar bears.. haahas.. Freezing la...

wet weather= no morning assmbly= can go sch late= can dun wake up so early.... :):):)

today pe played netball.. long time din go on court liao..
miss the days in secondary sch pe nia~
where we go thru so much blood and sweat together!!~

haix... today gt some bad news for me.. i have remedials! ahh!... okay la.. onli gt 2.. maths remedial took up my earliest day(which i can go hm very early la) but nw have to go hm abt 2 hrs ltr.. sianx.. argh.. then that gp remedial took up my pe lessons which i nid to do make up pe on other days= doing pe alone.. zzz argh.. lucky this pe is also in between my breaks or else its gonna eat up my earliest day also.. *humph* :(

hmm.. now den found out today is wednesday.. haix.. tot today thursday tmr would be friday liao... waiting waiting for weekend to arrive den i can stay at hm slp whole day~

tired :( waky waky.. time to go slp slp :)

2007-07-23T15:31:00.000+08:00

Yeah! today so happi nia.. today by right should be a long day for me de.. should end at 6 plus.. lalla.. but those who pass napfa can dun need go for evening pe.. gp teacher on mc.. hahas.. no lessons ya.. in between still gt breaks so end up going hm damn early today.. lalala :) :) :)

1) gp lesson- 1hr

2) pe- 1hr

3) in between breaks- 1hr 30mins

hmm.. in total i can go home 3hr 30mins earlier as compared to normal mondays... yeah!! reach hm can just slp.. eh.. no.. muz blog first.. thats how i ended up here!!...

last night sleep so late.. today so tired.. zzz.. but really cant slp last night.. i set my alarm clock in my phone but i din hear it ring this morning leh.. hmm.. got two possibilities..

-either the phone rings until it drops dead or

-i woke up in my dream to switch it off but after that i have forgotten that i have done so...im always like that duh.. zzz

this entry should have blogged few days ago liao.. but lazi.. hahas. so drag until now.. hmm meet jm went lib.. den after go eat dinner.. but dunno wad to eat leh.. zz so many choices.. den went kfc.. saw nie, den after that bump into cw and cky.. after that also saw ren sheng wai kiat.. LOL.. like ex-mf gthering like that.. haix.. so long queue den in the end din manage to eat kfc..

me n jm outside amk hub

omg!! minced meat noodles so tempting la.. but too bad i just had my mac b4 jm.. den cant eat liao.. i wan on diet nah.. i even teach jm how to eat the noodles la... like how to eat in a way that will make you feel like eating another bowl again.. hmm.. not bad right.. okay.. i seems like a professional teaching pple how to eat.. eh.. no..actually more like an idiot who knows nth abt it.. hahas.. LOL.. now i feel like eating mac liao :) so hungry la.. hmm.. keep eating mac for the past few days liao.. luv their fries! zzz..

this bowl of soup looks like pig's brain nah~

hahs.. ask jm to help me take my no.10's pic b4 going hm.. LOL

hmm.. recently did a summary of wad i wan to buy.. and omg.. so many la.. gt contact lens, clothes, shoes, blah blah blah.. so many many more la.. haix.. im always like that after a whole-day shopping.. sianx.. gonna find a way to stop my temptation.. zzz

random stuff:

State the difference between Elmo and Emo. (10 marks)

hmm.. i so guai.. no emo stuff for this entry.. LOL.. whack me if you see any..

2007-07-21T12:30:00.000+08:00

-god gives us tears to use it onli for happy moments.. but we misuse it-

2007-07-19T21:28:00.000+08:00

i wish to be a better person
but i m not sure
where to start from
can anyone help me??..

2007-07-19T20:47:00.000+08:00

sianz... yestd nt feeling very well.. woke up in a bad mood.. plus gastric. zzz eh think somewat like that ba.. wanted like skip sch.. okay.. im bad gal.. just wanted to play truancy for one day nah.. force myself go sch.. mood still as bad as b4.. den decide to use gastric as an excuse to get early leave.. okay la.. stomach nt feeling well also ma.. hmm.. leave sch at ard 10am??.. its not a very short day for me lo.. although lessons ended quite early.. like 1 plus.. but still gt wad nyaa tok at 6pm.. nah.. i not going to stay back or come back to sch man.. and heard that its nth like that can find in website de.. so heng din go back la!!!..

principals are witches, i mean the female principals.. they like so wicked like that.. i took the early leave form also took until so difficult.. they like ask why you gt gastric like that.. i say like oh din eat well these few days.. she like say why din eat well.. zzz. wah.. she nt easy to deal with man. she also say if she let me go eat how is it.. diun nid take early leave.. den also say that if everyone like you go take early leave den she has to issue early form to everyone liao.. zzz many of my frens also kana by her..zzz cant stand.. hate this sch!

reach hm quite early.. but im stoning for the whole aftern la.. still no mood do anything.. den go slp.. kkies.. mood better.. but it doesn't solve the prob anyway.. tok with her thru the phone after that :)

that sunday went elliceee's church.. after that celebrate her belated bd..

me ellicee novie jm..

ellicee's bd cake.. the one wafer stick w straw berry stands for 10yrs.. the rest w/o is one year.. creative wor..

2007-07-17T21:27:00.000+08:00

sry..
i din mean it, really..

2007-07-16T19:12:00.001+08:00

muhahas.. love this video since long long ago liao.. think since last year ba.. finally put it here in my blog.. this is a sad love story of a man donating his eyes to his love whom became blind after a bottle of chemical solution spilled onto her face.. this video might be long long ago le.. but its as touching as b4 ya.. Enjoy the movie k! hahahs. lalala

kiss-Because i'm a girl

2007-07-15T12:45:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to watch harry show.. er.. show was quite okay.. but ending a bit disapoointing leh..hehex.. im anticipating sth to happen between ron, harry and harmanie(eh. dunno how to spell) de.. but onli first part harry's first kissss..
hahas.. b4 going for harry show meet up with novie early for shopping!!! Her addiction lor... lolx.. but at least this time i go shopping i haven gone in vain.. caz i learn lots of things (i din bought anything though).. hehex... from novie of course!! some things wan to buy but have to save up money first to buy next time... zzz. got shoes, clothes blah blah blah.. think im gonna be a crazy shopper sooner or later..
and hey.. think my shoulder quite strong man or maybe im just wearing a thick jacket that time.. hehex.. gt a auntie walk pass me.. we actually dunno we are walking pass each other de.. den our shoulder just knocked onto each other.. bang!! den this auntie was ouching like erm.. dunno how to say.. den i like no feeling like that.. onli gt the feelig like gt hit hit like that.. haix so guilty.. sry sry auntie..
after that the most exciting part comes.. was tricking everyone that i forgot to bring tickets.. novie knows it man caz i told her earlier i wan to play plank liao.. zzz... think everyone feel like slapping me le.. the gals den like started bullying me outside foodcourt.. hehex.. okay people say kids should not tell lies de yeah.. muhaha
hmm.. when i reached hm.. i notice this blue black on my leg.. argh.. think its that soccer ball which hit me during my pe lesson that day.. sianz.. disfigured leg..

2007-07-12T18:14:00.000+08:00

last night,
my anticipation has turned into tears of sorrows
as i couldn't find you.
Where have you been
when im down and needed you most,
wanted you by my side.
my waiting, searching, yearning...
everywhere, everytime
seems eternity...
but you din appear for me
despite my cries
Where have you been....

2007-07-12T16:34:00.000+08:00

你变得像他一样沉默
偶尔也像他一样活泼
连笑声也都一样
我怎么忘
也忘不过一秒
我想要爱
却看到他离开的刹那

你将爱情带走
留我一个分手的魔咒
叫我伤得彻底不敢再妄想谁的温柔
看我的眼神闪躲
我知道你有话不能说
我该如何假装
心才不隐隐作痛

你说分手后
你(我)第一次有想爱的念头
可是眼前的是他还是你(我)
还在争夺

我懂你不想承诺
却又无法解开这魔咒
让我在你心里面复活
无数次的复活
我只要你爱我

远远看你勇敢在心头
靠近一点却又太懦弱
不拆穿你的困惑
爱不了我(你)
至少不要难过
任何结果
我会点头
只要你快乐

你将爱情带走
留我一个分手的魔咒
叫我伤得彻底不敢再妄想谁的温柔
看我的眼神闪躲
我知道你有话不能说
我该如何假装
心才不隐隐作痛

你说分手后
我(你)第一次有想爱的念头
可是眼前的是他还是你(我)
我(你)还在争夺

我不想给你承诺
却又无法解开这魔咒
让我在你心里面复活
无数次的复活
我只要你爱我
无数次的复活
我只要你爱我

Lin Yu Zhong, Jin Sha- <<复活 >>

2007-07-11T22:11:00.000+08:00

these few days feeling so restless and lazy.. dun feel like doing anything.. today need run 4 rounds round the track.. but i cant even survive through 2 rounds.. a sudden pain.. even naqee have to pei me run.. and we are so far way behind the rest.. haix.. wats happening in me.. thats not myself man!... feeling feverish all over and a little giddy.. think im sick.. argh.. zzz..

2007-07-08T20:52:00.000+08:00

is today an auspicious day?? hmm... since morning.. i have seen two couples are in the joy of the process of marriage.. this morning go breakfast den passby a block.. from the ground floor can hear the noise.. muahha den saw the groom and his best man and guys standing outside the bride hse pleading the bride maid to go into the hse.. den heard the noise of appaluse.. hmm.. think they manage to go into the hse le ba.. hehex.. i even saw the groom and bride's car.. in front got 2 teddy bear.. so cute man!
den after that in the afternoon.. i was shocked by loud honk of vehicles below my hse.. i tot it was traffic jam.. but quite impossible leh.. den i so kpo that i went out to see see.. den found that omg!!.. many big vehicles.. got trucks, big lorries, vans, etc.. forming a long single file... it strectches for abt 2 to 3 blocks.. then they kept playing with their honks.. they even made up songs too.. still got police alarm de.. very noisy la.. den the whole block de resident like also rush out to see wad happened.. hahas. i at first tot is wad advertisement to promote the environment day or wad...zzz den found out tt from the head of every vehicles got strips of blue and silver shiny thingy.. oh oh. MALAY marriage!! after which gt one whole grp of pple playing malay drums.. everything so grand and surprising la.. they are so fortunate.. if me i damn gan dong liao..
muahha wish all couples happiness and have a blisssful life ahead!!!

2007-07-07T01:10:00.000+08:00

hahas.. was actually in a damn moody mood de.. school happened a lot of unhappy things today.. results was really really poor.. got all U grades except a D for my geo.. actually expected de... so quite okay la.. muhaha.. i even got last in my gp.. and the only U grade student in class..zzz
wahaha.. mood turn better when ah li and th began their entertaining show.. muhaha.. cant stand it sia.. so farnie de both them.. anyway need thks them ya! hehex..
last night sleep for onli two hours.. okay la.. gt slp better than dun have... rushing my hw..zzz cant finish.. no wonder today in sch so tired.. think now i gt darker panda rings le.. zzz. waky waky.. better go slp liao..

2007-07-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

那时我们天天在一起太幸福到不需要距离很贪心要全世界注意只是太年轻快乐和伤心都像在演戏一碰就惊天动地今天看你昨天的你去了哪里那年夏天我和你躲在这一大片宁静的海直到后来我们都还在对整个世界充满期待今年冬天你已经不在我的心空出了一块很高兴遇见你让我终究明白回忆你真是精彩那时我们天天在一起太幸福到不需要距离很贪心要全世界注意只是太年轻快乐和伤心都像在演戏一碰就惊天动地今天看你昨天的你去了哪里那年夏天我和你躲在这一大片宁静的海直到后来我们都还在对整个世界充满期待今年冬天你已经不在我的心空出了一块很高兴遇见你让我终究明白回忆你真是精彩还记得一起努力还有那些一言为定现在我就当过去是种学习虽然好不容易那年夏天我和你躲在这一大片宁静的海直到后来我们都还在对这个世界充满期待今年冬天你已经不在我的心空出了一块很高兴遇见你让我终究明白回忆你真是精彩 BYE BYE NEVER SAY GOODBYE 未来我期待未来

<<那年夏天宁静的海>>Cyndi Wang

2007-07-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

argh!!!!! i suddenly feel im so dumb stupid stubborn useless and everything !!.. no.. i dun think its a sudden.. i think im one all along!!!!.. i shouldn't have done things that i should not have been doing.. so dumb so stupid so stubborn!!!!.. sianx.. im such a nuisance.. i shouldn't have poke myself into other's pple business!! serves me right.. argh..... kahmu li novie i hope you all are by my sides, scolding me abt my faults... zzzz.. i cant stand myself le.. wad am i doing??!! im a useless sheep.. sob..

-YaNg-

2007-07-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

You,
beautified my life,
made me understand
the true meaning of love.
The experiences of the gift of
love and care;
warmth & happiness;
sorrows & hardships;
laughter & joy;
"silver butterfly";
and...
the tedious journey you have accompanied me throughout.
Maybe you have forgotten
but i won't forget those years with you around..
you will always be in my mind..

-YaNg-

2007-07-02T22:01:00.000+08:00

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
只能陪你到这里毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还是你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人
是不是同一个
真实的你
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你
写不出结局
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杨丞琳- <<暧昧>>

2007-06-29T00:35:00.000+08:00

muhaha.. now so happy.. exam over.. tmr no sch.. haha.. that's why still got energy to blog at this time.. hmm.. im really sua gu.. zzz.. i dunno how to change the blogskin yeah!!.. i saw something i like.. den i try change den they say wad "error".. %$#@!^&* so many times also like that... no! i muz not give up.. i will try again tmR... %$#@!^&*
today took chem paper.. happy-go-lucky i can say.. think teacher going to see my parents soon le.. after test went to auntie (whom i call her "mama") hse visit her.. din go for a week le.. miss her ya.. den my baby cousin come back.. zzz he's so chubby and cute la.. luv him lots.. he very farnie de.. the moment he want to act act fake to someone he will blink his eyes continuously.. den this make me come to a point: mm.. if next time he grow up, if he tell lies.. he might blink his eyes also.. haha.. den we will know.. hee.. okay... quite a silly perception..
i also go taste the cheesecake tht me and my cousin made tgther.. one/two weeks le ba.. its kept in the freezer.. quite farnie right.. but if its nt kept in freezer it will melt wor.. hehex.. think this cake really fail le..

-YaNg-

2007-06-28T23:20:00.000+08:00

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tank<<专属天使>> GuArDiAn AnGeL

2007-06-27T20:18:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today just finished another two subjects.. maths and geo... no more hope for maths le.. i gt the paper do the first two qns.. den the rest i started to struggle and gt stuck there liao.. zzz
2hr30min of maths but onli use 1hr30mins do the test (muhaha.. still gt skip the qns here and there) duh.. the rest of the time... im all along in daze.. im always like that.. look at the maths paper den the mind all gone blank liao.. den started to "daydream" and lots of time bye bye le..
geo paper 2hr15min... zzz.. another long paper again.. like last time sec 4 like that.. do geo always crap here crap there.. it makes me feel like im in mfss doing test paper like that.. and i dunno why gt this logic: the more paper i use for geography test the more happy i am.. self-satisfactory i think.. muhaha..
see ah li and nana wear class tee tgther.. i wonder if the 4i whole grp of pple wear the class tee tgther at the same time again.. what will the feeling be like??.. hmm.. looking forward to that yeah! luv 4i yeah! miss ya lots!
And here i wish everyone taking their exams this week and next week good luck and all the best!! =P

-YaNg-

anticipating for public holiday..zzz

2007-06-25T15:45:00.000+08:00

hmm... this whole week gonna have test, test, test... okay.. im not prepared.. still in holiday mood wor.. today just finished gp and econs tests.. econs i crap a lot.. just like last time i did ss in sec sch like that.. can think of wad jiu write wad ba.. mm.. but i dun understand why i still nt jin zhang like that.. maybe i fail many tests b4 liao.. plus no energy to think so much after the tests ba.. worrying here and there will drain off my brain juice sooner or later.. plus i scare become white-hair demoness.. so better dun think..
hmm.. tmr no sch so that can preapre wed de tests.. but i dun think can clear all de.. geo so much thing to study.. how to study all..zzz
school just started but i already anticipating the next holiday le.. hmm.. public holiday ba.. my classmate told me gt holiday i so happi like mad.. muhaha.. anticipating to go out with 4i pple ma.. wondering wad will be the next outing be.. muhaha. got one or two days holiday its better than nothing.. muhaha.. lets look forward for that day ba..

-YaNg-

shili's bd

2007-06-23T12:25:00.000+08:00

dun have enough slp for this whole week or so ba.. plus dunnoe why dun feel hungry at most of the time.. hmmm.. most importantly, dun feel like studying..
ytd went nyp with 4i to celebrate shili's bd.. sort of giving her surprise ba.. go one of the foodcourt settle down.. should be mac place ba i think.. haha.. see how cw eat fries to imitate some1.. chao farnie.. in the process of waiting.. muhaha.. we started taking pics from nana's cam and nie's hp.. haha.. helped nie to accomplished sth also wor.. shh.. cannot say.. think those who are there will noe ba yeah.. den after that also see pple swimming in the pool.. so nice zzz... and ya hor.. i began to love nyp le.. caz of the water cooler.. wah.. its so cooling than i expected.. maybe im thirsty?.. waited for ali to come out to eat the cake.. den wanted to go mf but they end the alumni thingy liao.. after that go kfc.. chat chat until they close... we chat ghostly thingy on the way.. eee.. quite scary..

me & nie at nyp!!

me!

-Yang-

sense of nostalgia

2007-06-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

think not many pple will be interested in visiting this blog le ba.. its been a long time since i touch this blog again.. i decided to write in my blog at this moment because i gt a lot of mix feelings in me and i dun really how to express it out but to say out here ba.. maybe sad or maybe a sense of nostalgia..
frankly speaking.. i dun like my current sch here. maybe my close frenz from 4i are not with me and i din get any warmth here ba.. quite lame though. The bond between my current classmates and I are not close.. and i feel that im beginning to close myself up from them... in all, you can say that i din have a close or true fren here. evrytime the last period sch bell rings, i will be hoping to reach home asap.. rush and rush and rush hm.. im NOT rushing hm to mug but just do not to wish to stay in sch any longer.. the feeling in sch is really "leng dan dan" de.. probably im missing all my old frenz.. and tend to make myself feel miserable ba.. that's why a lot of ppple say "treaure yr sec sch frenz if you can.."
besides that, i have difficulty getting thru these few months.. we art stream student does not seem to be treated equally as the science stream by the sch..
hmm.. sometimes i would wonder what if i cant get thru this year's promos.. poly or private institute should i choose? hmm.. k.. im rather negative..
went to Sentosa for 4i's get together few days ago.. it may not have so many pple.. but just seeing them im already content.. at least they made the effort to come.. touching touching..
hmm... waiting for 4i's camping trip planned by cky..

-YaNg-

so "fan"

2006-12-16T02:08:00.000+08:00

haix.. long time din blog liao.. think my blog turning rusty soon if im not going to update anything..
today went to my aunt hse before i went to work.. haix.. i suddenly feel like missing her. sch holiday started and my mum wanted me to be back home.. so din stay at my aunt hse recently..
haix.. she's been taking care of me since one month old.. she's like my second mum like that.. and my mum told me that im not going to stay dere anymore.. im quite piss off and sad.. mostly sad ba i think... imagine you hve been staying with someone for many years liao.. got some feelings de ma.. suddenly cant be with the person liao.. so when my mum keep bringing up this issue.. i will force myself not to hear anything from her.. mm.. pretending that i din hear anything ba i can say.. my aunt like kept asking me whether i will still be staying at her house when sch starts next year.. she was actually hoping i could.. staying in her house for 16 yrs liao leh.. who would bear to leave a person whom you have been staying with for 16 years le.. i really dun mind slping in the living room.. squeezing with the small kids... it makes me feel even more cosier i can say..
wad made me feel more sadder than ever is that i found out that my aunt's being so lonely at home.. her kids at work.. usually at night den come back.. her husband also at work too.. those kids that she usually babysit had gone home for good too.. the rest in childcare.. imagine how she past her time alone in the day.. i feel very sad.. and disappointed with myself..
ok.. today went to her hse.. den she wanted to go to my another aunt's shop to buy something.. she din want to go alone.. and she told me.."want go with me?.. im feel so bored going alone leh".. my heart really melted this time.. imagine how she coped in the house for all these times.. haiz..
i feel like crying..
besides that i also feel that my mum wasn't so approve of me to go my aunt hse dere too often like that.. today right after work.. erm.. midnight liao.. actually wanted to settle my supper at amk central and den stay overnight at my aunt hse de.. den she sort of not very happy.. haix.. at home.. she seems like jailing me like that.. saying "you not going back to stay at your aunt hse liao hor when sch starts.." haix.. maybe my mum scare that i will leave her for good.. where got any parents would want their kids to leave them de.. right?? maybe i should try to understand her too ba.. haix.. ok.. im really fan now..
to be continued..

"Yeah.. I can do it de!!"

2006-12-10T10:40:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging at abt 10plus, almost 11am in the morning on sunday, 10th Dec 2006. ok.. last night work until midnight then reach home, so drag until today den blog.. gonna blog abt yesterday(sat) de thingy..

by right yesterday got k box de.. from 2pm to 7pm.. but heard quite many pple busy so the outing to k box was cancelled at the last minute yesterday morning.. haha.. im one of them who cant go too la.. got night shift work ma.. cant go too lor..

meet JM for lunch in the afternoon, we went to borrow some books in amk library.. i actually wanted to borrow those "chicken soup for the blah blah blah soul" de kind of books.. but cant find leh.. den in the end borrowed other books lor.. afterwhich we went j8 had our lunch, walk walk den went straight to work liao..

ok.. gonna talk a bit of my work.. today nigght shift, saturday still worx.. so sure will be damn busy at the outlet de.. tot i will be dead too.. but hey hey hey.. my roster was actually a dishwasher- helping the dish auntie to bring those washed dishes in and out of the kitchen can liao.. heex.. heard from my Sir that this chance not always have de.. caz nt enough dishwasher auntie ma.. so i be the auntie today.. heex.. good in the sense that being a dishwasher is not as tedious as serving the customers outside.. but bad in the sense that those dishes are really heavy.. and i met with some mishaps too.. haix..
ok.. work in the kitchen.. maybe dishwasher is not that tedious.. but its really scary.. i need to constantly passby the chefs' alley to place back their washed utensils.. the alley so narrow so cramp so diffifult to squeeze, plus there's always hot oven hot oil hot food hot water all over the place.. scare scare la.. plus the floor so slippery and i almost fall a few times liao.. my shoes no friction liao.. ok. plus one more thing.. all the chefs are tall tall and big big size de.. erm.. they cant see me so easily la.. so when i passby them and they did not see it.. they will just bang and hit into me.. so even im not scalded by hot oil, or fell down due to slippery floor.. i might even be just banged and knocked down.. ok ok.. joking joking.. aiya.. so better no dishwasher for me liao.. its a nightmare.. but those chefs quite farnie also de la.. they so childish also.. they used those dog-shaped potatoes and played dog racing on their cooking platform to see who can win -_-"

ok.. here comes the mishap.. when bringing the dishes out of the kitchen to put in cabinet.. dunnoe why.. about 10 side plates that im holding dropped onto the ground and abt 6 plates broken.. sianzzz.. plus that time in the evening-night time somemore... the outlet full house.. "bliang!".. so when those broken plates were heard, the noisy and lots of excitement de outlet had suddenly become silently dead.. wa.. whole outlet experienced a few seconds of dead silence.. ok so quiet.. so peaceful.. everyone trying to look where the sound came from... but guilty la.. den later i broke another tall ice cream glassware somemore.. sob... why i kept breaking things de... cant stand it.. so careless and crumsy.. thinking myself to be so useless.. making pple so troublesome.. ok.. den i remembered li yong told me this.. "you need to endure, understand?".. and cky said "you must have faith and believe in yourself.." ok.. their words sort of motivated me ba.. yeah.. i should be able to make it.. wait.. no.. i can make it de..

missing everyone

2006-12-09T01:25:00.000+08:00

i suddenly got this urge to write this entry at this hour.. now is 0130 sat eaarly in the morning.. midnight la actually.. yup.. kk.. dun look at my entry de .. its wrong de.. im blogging now maybe b'cos i got nothing to do.. and secondly i got some "gan(3) chu(4)"..
we usually dun cherish the ones around us.. its always that when evryonee is leaving and then we will feel one another's important presence.. human beings are always like that.. why cant we cherish one another when everyone is just right beside us.. maybe we took things for granted very greatly.. much greatly i can say.. its always almost at the end of everything den we will dare to show love,care and concern for everyone.. its also always at this time that evryone will have the most "gan(3) chu(4)".. those emotions- happy, sad, etc.. ok.. its just like a movie too.. you will always feel touched, happiness, sadness at the end of the show at most of the time.. there goes the same as 4I.. mm.. this is wat i think ba.. i dunnoe wat others think so.. give comments k..
when we are still having lessons as a class in 4I.. we are feeling quite disappointed.. thinking that 4I's always facing so much obstacles.. and some evn hoping to get out of the sch asap.. ok.. in overall many will think that its the sch that caused us to be so miserable.. but actually.. I dun really hate the school so much.. may detest why sch is making our class met with so much obstacles at first.. but not as much as that of hate.. maybe our sch has lousy policy?.. however, to think of it.. does anyone know that without the school.. there will not have 4I class, no 4I class means there will be no combination of us pple.. no sch means no lousy policy.. no lousy policy no obtacles.. and we 4I would not have been so bonded ma.. hey.. found out xiao yang suddenly talking sense leh.. ok.. maybe its sense to me.. but crap to others ba.. ok.. late liao.. got nagged.. sianx.. to be continued

seoul garden

2006-12-08T09:35:00.000+08:00

mm.. i will continue the chalet thingy some other times ba.. caz i think im far way behind time.. must blog sometime recently de.. kk.. den i talk abt the seoul garden de ba..

4th Dec 2006 (Mon).. meet outside amk SG at 6pm.. i reached there.. eh.. no one wor.. kk.. den saw rui han and li yong coming forward.. teah.. they reached the earliest wor den also found out no one.. then we idled around the area.. waiting for the rest.. seoul garden, its my first time in my life to be there on mon.. i very sua gu la.. really did not step into seoul garden b4 ma.. ok.. i think i did not eat much too.. too lazy? maybe ba.. too tired to touch those raw food liao.. so focus on those cooked food.. ok.. have fun most of the time ba. we played while we ate.. games like zhong ji mi ma, calling each other de names, etc.. after that also go to the back see li yong talk crap.. dunno why leh.. he talk crap pple also very interested de.. haha.. ok.. im one of his audience la.. mm.. abt 20 4I's there ba.. and that cky.. chao farnie.. go eat the ice cream with three prwns.. no wonder will get stomachache..

afterwhich we went playground.. around 10pm le ba i think.. muhaha.. i luv the swings.. ok.. i dunno how to push myself de.. need pple to push me and teach me.. novie, li yong, rui han, ting hao,etc.. muhaha..thanks.

we dere also played catching.. the defreeze and freezing games.. so fun.. haha.. run here run dere.. long time did not play these games liao.. not i dun want.. but its no one play with me.. though this game seems like children play de.. but who cares? we happy can liao.. i luv it.. i wanna play somemore.. we also have a live concert by our HIM.. muhaha.. see of course fake de.. but also need to give them a round of applause.. this trio formed by our honourable li yong, cky and clement.. muhaha.. ok.. they quite brave de la i must say.. almost more than 10 pple looking at their "live" concert worx.. bravo!

going back home around 11plus?.. yupyup.. i think so.. ok.. li yong that heady that day.. making sure everyone goes back safely.. so that everyone go back as a grp.. ok.. he rocks! ok.. me and tinghao den took the last train..wah.. really heng..

WORK
ok.. started work since monday le.. quite tiring i must say.. wah.. needs lots of eye and mind power.. ok so when i reached home.. im straight away on bed.. ok.. first few days made lots of mistake too.. like accidentally knocking off ice water almost on customer.. lucky she's a teen not an adult.. or else really get scolding from her.. den forget to key in lamb chop order.. and made the customer waited.. lucky she very kind also.. aiya.. lamb chop my species leh.. automatically forgot to take the order ma.. how can let pple eat my species.. ok.. dots.

NEGLECTED
i think im sort of neglected.. i seem to be living in my own world.. i feel that im so insignificant.. im so sad and disappointed.. haix.. even if i seem to be living in this world, i feel that im not living for myself.. im living under pressure instead...

URGE
i have the urge to learn and play basketball.. who got time?? can teach me?? anyone??

Chalet

2006-12-04T09:14:00.000+08:00

Chalet

2006-12-04T08:57:00.000+08:00

muhaha.. forgive me if i did not blog for a long time la.. mm.. recently got difficulties online caz internet problem.. kk.. ltr still gt work.. but gonna blog as much as i can at this moment..

1st day of chalet:
mm.. meet our frenz at amk mrt station at 1pm.. wait wait.. still got many ppl haven come yet.. then suddenly someone said that the chalet is 3 days 2 nights.. i actually got a shock!! wat!! i tot is 2 days 1 night de..omg.. i didn't bring enough clothes.. no wonder other pple de bad so full full de.. my one so thin.. dots.. kk.. den quickly rush back to my aunt hse talk some clothes la.. den my aunt wanted me to bring something to my brother at braddell.. so bring this big bag of thingys go back braddell again.. den take 88 with jm to chalet alone.. aiya.. we should have take mrt to amk first den take 88.. the journey so long.. ok.. i very toot la.. stay at braddell so long liao.. still dunno the place to take 88.. still need to ask tinghao.. i even got reprimanded by kahmu(jm)lor..
that time reach pasir ris terminal le.. den quickly call yen ru.. she told us to run as fast as possible to catch the shuttle bus they are taking.. run run run.. den i saw a bus gone liao.. tot they also went off too.. den eh.. still so many mini bus dere.. muhahaha.. they still dere.. so lucky we manage to catch it.. Thanks those who helped to ask the bus uncle to wait for us yeah!! =P kk.. den no place to sit.. so sit on wendeline's leg.. Xin Ku Ni le..

started our day by renting a bike and do skating.. den after that go fetch ellice.. den go change my bike to a double sitting de.. haha.. i very lazy to ride ma.. plus i also dun really know how to ride a bike de.. ellice bacame my bike rider.. muhaha.. so fun to be seated at the bike.. can dun do anything.. k... im bad.. aiya.. just let me be a bad gal at that moment lo.. kk.. den ellice fetch me to white sand dere.. journey also very long.. help them carry some food that are to be prepared for dinner de.. den a few bikes got chained up by the staff in charge there la.. she looks so fierce..

preparation of dinner started.. muhaha.. preparation seems to be a bit tedious like that.. but must really thanks Yen ru and Yu hui wor!! they rocks.. they lead and did most of the cooking de wor.. some guys also helped out too.. ok.. den that chun wei.. didn know that he seem to know much about cooking wor..

Blogging For Fun

2006-11-25T01:48:00.000+08:00

haix.. its so boring.. dunnoe wat to do for holiday.. although i have a rough idea what to learn and what to do.. but i dunnoe which one to start with.. so in the end you can say that i haven started what i want to do la.. erm.. except blogging ba.. i think..
I see pple so fun doing blogging.. so i also try out.. at first quite tedious la.. so many tag elements de.. so complicated.. so i must thanks SHILI and NOVIE de help worx. muhaha..
who happens to come into this blog.. so sorry.. haven't fully have it done properly yet.. i will do it when i have the mood yeah..
i will introduce my blog in times to come de.. (incomplete yet)